“What is surrender? We’re not speaking to external events or people; although they’re involved, they’re pointing us to something internal. In martial arts, [my view has been that] the goal is that there is an opponent; the opponent is inside of us. So, once you handle that opponent, your external opponents are not there. You won’t find them and they won’t find you. And if they do find you, then it’s a chance for you to strengthen your resolve; to really go inside and [ask]: “What’s coming up inside of me in this situation? What’s the gift for me in this situation?” First and foremost we need to handle what’s going on inside of us. This is not an intellectual process. We’re talking of surrender on the most…simple level.
So when would we surrender? Really, the question is: when would we not surrender? Because in every moment, if you have the awareness where you’re even aware that there’s a choice to surrender, that there’s a choice ‘to be’, there’s a choice to let go, that is a rare, rare event, because most of humanity is coming from a function of the mind, the intellect, the separate me.
In 12 Step recovery programs, Step One states: “We admitted … that our lives had become unmanageable.” That’s a powerful place. It’s really saying: “I of myself cannot handle this.” And often it will be that life will become so overwhelming or circumstances become so insurmountable or “painful” that we reach that point where we say: “Wait a minute. I just can’t do this!” In that moment of grace, some people have that cognition of surrender. When we’re surrendering, no matter [what your religion or lack or religion], we’re stopping and surrendering to the inner truth as an experience. When we surrender to that being within us, we’re letting go of the mind, the story, the separate “I”, the past, the future; we’re letting go of everything. And then we see what’s left.
So when you surrender, what is it that you gain? Well, you stop feeding the problem. You stop reacting. When we’re reacting, we’re acting it out again and again and again. There may be different actors in our play, but it’s the same [play], the same feeling, the same point of view, the same “…errrrr”. And the “…errrr” is the meat, the juice – that’s where we enter. “I can surrender inside or I can keep reacting to the circumstance, this impossible person”, or whatever that external event is. We don’t surrender to gain; that’s not surrender. We’re referring to true surrender. Feel that. If the mind doesn’t understand what we’re talking about, that’s brilliant. Even in the letting go of control, most of us don’t want to give up. We don’t want to surrender the little bit of control that we think we have. (The ‘us’ is the intellect, the small “I”, the thinker.) We start being a part of the solution. We start reclaiming energy that we were expending to keep this adversarial relationship going. We gain clarity; we gain sight; we’re able to see. We surrender our small point of view and we start to see the big picture. We actually merge with that big picture and we see the whole mosaic.
What do we gain in surrender? We also get our strength back and true strength – that inner strength that’s available when we let go of our “…errrr”. We’re [then] able to have this Infinite Well that we draw on that gives us the strength to handle whatever needs to be handled. Feel what we’re saying. We get clarity – crystal clarity, sometimes [even] being able to see through. Where we might have focused on the trees and lost the forest or vice versa – we’re able to see through all of it. We’re able to cut through all of the maya, to cut through the illusion that seemed so real when we held onto that point of view, that frustration, or anger, or resentment, or grief, or guilt, or fear, or shame – whatever it was. We’re feeling what’s deeper. We go beyond emotion. And then we have wisdom revealed. We tap into that Eternal Intelligence – that intelligence of All That Is because It allows us to have that sight – the wisdom that comes from being on the inside looking out, instead of our looking out [to the external world] to find it. When we’re in that state of grace, the wisdom pours through you as you are led, guided and directed in your Divine right action in the circumstance, in every circumstance – when you surrender, when you let go of the small “I” point of view and you feel what’s deeper. It’s not always pleasant because a lot of what we’re protecting with the identification with the ego and the false “I” and the thinking and the story is the gooey center inside of us that doesn’t feel good. When we go right to that, when we surrender even into that, when we merge with that, it can’t sustain itself. It was the protection itself, the internal protection against what we were feeling – that’s what was feeding it – what was keeping it alive and real.
What do we gain from surrender? We gain wisdom. And when we have wisdom, we have support of Nature. Nature is all of creation – All That Is, Was and Ever Will Be created. You have that support. “The meek will inherit the earth.” What does that even mean? When you surrender, you are the ultimate of meek. And the paradox of that is that is when you are the most powerful.” ~ John Newton, April 20, 2015, April Call Series – partial transcript #AncestralClearing #SweetSurrender #Consciousness #ComplementaryHealing http://www.johnnewton.com
John Newton considers his work to be complementary to the work of doctors, therapists, and other health care practitioners, not an alternative to their care.